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I Am a Writer

April 3, 2013

If you ask, I will tell you that I am a writer. Intellectually, I know that I am. I am comfortable saying it now, embracing it. I am a writer. That is part of my essence.

What about from a practical standpoint?

I am learning much from my faith that resonates throughout the rest of my life. Imagine that.

In my faith, I have discovered the necessity to “die” to oneself on a daily basis, maybe even an hourly basis. Some days a minute by minute basis. I must turn away from that which constrains me, that which binds me to this temporal existence in order to transcend, to elevate, to fly.

I am discovering that this applies to my creativity as well. I can call myself a Christian but what am I doing this morning other than claiming a name? I can call myself a writer but what am I doing right now that earns that distinction?

I wake up with my mind full of ideas and thoughts wanting to be expressed, needing to be committed to a more permanent form. But I also wake up knowing my responsibilities, the “what must be dones,” that escort me from my bed, through my day, back to my bed, and, on occasion, wake me here and there throughout my nights, to remind me of my failures and to point out the futility of my attempts.

If left to their own devices, they will lull me with promises that I can do better if I just give them more time. If I just make more checklists. If I just…

There is an exquisite balance that must be reached for things must be done. People must be cared for. Houses and lawns must be kept up and maintained. Dogs must be fed and groomed. Babies must be held.

But the Responsibilities are never ending and are ever unyielding. When the fact is grasped that one could literally work on Responsibilities from sun up to midnight, seven days a week, and never finish, that “things” shall always be left undone or worse, continue to “undo” themselves even as you work, one begins to understand the need for this balance.

And so, at least for this day, I have decided to die to myself, to the pride that says I can do it all, that if it were not for me, my little part of the world could not function. I am deciding for this minute on this day to stretch to find the balance that gives me room to breathe, to transcend, to create. I shall take counsel from the Responsibilities and make my decisions rather than being governed by them.

This is my commitment for this day. This is how I shall be a more spiritual person for the next few hours. This is how I will claim my life as a writer on this Wednesday.

And tomorrow I shall be required to do it again. And the next day. And if on succession of my remaining days I am successful, I shall have had a most wonderful life.

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8 Comments leave one →
  1. April 3, 2013 9:16 am

    Terry,
    Amen and amen! We do have to commit every day, don’t we? You are inspirational!

    • April 4, 2013 8:39 pm

      Kind thanks dear Drema! You are very kind and with all of your recent successes, my gosh, talk about inspirations! You’re on fire!

  2. M L Northern permalink
    April 3, 2013 12:14 pm

    Inspiring, Terry. Your words sent me back to a quote I read last night in the book Meditations on the Mat: “The three grand essentials to happiness in life are something to do, something to love, and something to hope for.” – Joseph Addison

    For me, writing fits all three, as does family. Thank you for your words today.

    • April 5, 2013 2:43 pm

      Kindest of thanks dear Mary Lou. Yes, I totally agree. Writing and family fit all three. What a marvelous quote. Thank you for your encouragement and also for sharing your talents with all of us! See you soon!

  3. Alli permalink
    April 9, 2013 6:50 pm

    Thank you for the meditation, for the wisdom, for the grounding. You are wondrous in your words and they definitely touch the souls of those living and whisper the wisdom of those past. Thank you for the reminders. Thank you for being you. You are much loved.

    • April 9, 2013 7:56 pm

      Kind thanks dear Alli. I do appreciate the thoughtful words and the friendship. I am also glad to know that you have a blog and will follow! Are you writing? I am working on the novel and am dabbling in poetry which, of course, always reminds me of your wonderful class! Hope you are well, friend.

  4. C.e. permalink
    April 22, 2014 5:44 pm

    This was a really nice post filled with hope, humility, and grace ~

    • April 22, 2014 5:51 pm

      Many kind thanks, C.e. I am beholden for you reading and commenting. I appreciate your sensitive reading of my words and my heart. I have not posted as much with this blog as I’ve been posting regularly at a Facebook group of creatives solely designed to support and encourage each other found at: https://www.facebook.com/groups/133896083416072/ I also post every other week on a site for creative living retreats I facilitate with another creative, Dave DeGolyer. The most recent post was put up today at http://westofthemoonretreat.com/what-if/

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